Hurry Up Friday. I'm Over This Week.

The next time I pray I'm going to ask God for more hours in the day so I might have a chance in getting some things done. I felt as if I were failing in life today. Kenny woke up...or shall I say GOT up before I did this morning and prances in my room to get me up. 10 minutes later he was in his room for being ugly and it progressively got more difficult to do anything with him. I miss the mornings (which were not that long ago ) where I had almost an hour just to myself to wake up, shower, and get ready for the day. But for the last two mornings, no matter what time I put him to bed he's up at the crack of dawn. Boo. So I had 1 unhappy child for most of the morning, along with a kitchen floor that I wouldn't let a dog eat off of, carpet that hadn't been vacuumed since sometime last week, and clothes strewn about as if closets didn't exist. And of course, NO TIME to take care of it. I hate leaving my house dirty.....because I really hate coming home to it dirty. Everything just seemed to be in complete chaos this morning and it was just too much. I made it out the door on time and cried most of the way to work. It wasn't just the fact that my house was dirty and nothing seemed to be going right, but there are just some mornings where I feel every ounce the single mother I am. I hope that made sense. I'm too tired to really care though :). I'm certainly not complaining. There are single mother's out there who have it worse then I do. And I am very much aware of how blessed I am. But I woke up and didn't want to do this alone anymore. And I don't mean "alone " in the sense of not having ANY support. My family is simply amazing and I have the best group of friends. Ever. But I don't think I really need to explain the kind of alone I mean :). Hopefully the day is coming where what will change. Until then, it's just me, a kid, and the chaos that is my house.